The Wizard of the Dark,,,,,

The ashes are still warm
my body lies there spread in the fire
but i promised you i will rise again

Some one told me, when i was a kid
"You will always belong to the dark, and that is where you will find all ur happiness"
i could not understand what he meant
now i see what darkness is to me
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they break me
they try to kill all the love i have for myself
they loathe me for what i have become

but the ashes are still warm
and the fire is still not out
and i rise once again

this is not a poem ......
this is a promise to myself
that all those who left me to die the slow and painful death
will one day realize what they have lost

i believe in you
i trust you
i still do
and i love you
a lot
but i have to go now
i have a goal to achieve
and thanks to you
you made me realize that the ashes also have a use.,,,,,,,,

I am what i am...........

The day starts
With a warm feeling of anticipation
Something good is going to happen today….

I wait for my chances to come
I wait for my time
I am patient
And I am diligent
But destiny has her ways

Dreams once cherished
Dreams now lost
Dreams forgotten long time back
Dreams that haunt me in the middle of the night

Nightmares no longer scare
People come and go
People I once loved, lost
People I once craved
Crawl all over my skin now

I became something wanton
Dark
Cold and dead
But I know good things will happen to me
Not in this lifetime
Maybe next
Or maybe the next one
I will keep on hoping
Keep on waiting
Keep on living and
Keep on dying
For I am an end in itself
I am faith
I am what I am………………..

Black is all I see......

There i stand
looking in the dark
is it only my reflection
or is it visions from the past
or maybe manifestations of my own desires

black is all i see
darkness is all around me
I've been searching
so long
that i lost sight
of what i was looking for
my trenchant journey, leads me nowhere........

i stand here now
a victim of my own choices
feeding on my own vices
i am leaving this place now
i am going into the darkness
death is the only way out.......

bblackness feeds my skin
blackness feeds my brain
blackness feeds my end..........

She came to me today......

I was standing there
in the dark
and she came to me today......
I know that look honey
I know u have been waiting
but isn't everysecond we spent waiting worth it now?
isn't every broken promise worth it?
isn't this life worth living now?

she stands there and smiles
knowing that emptiness inside me
the hours spent crying lonely in the dark
she knows I have been waiting
expecting
dreaming
hoping
that she will find me
and she did

this is how the journey begins
this is how we set to claim what is ours
Happiness