Hi Blog!!

How do you feel when you have not used your hands for months. Or, suddenly you got into a closet one fine day and got out after quiet some time. And suddenly when you come out, the world has changed. The people have moved on and things are not the same any more. Things maybe good, or better, but they are not the same.

Sitting in the office today, doing the billings on the month end, i suddenly remembered that I have a blog some where. To my surprise I had totally forgotten where and the URL to it. So after a google search I came to this page and said "Wow!!! Who wrote all this stuff man??" Surely, I know the answer but lets assume, that i do not, for now!!!

So in a nutshell the world has changed. Now you can send E Mails/ Sms to your blog and they will be published. Hmm, how convenient. Well, lets see.

So here I am sending this mail to my blog and let see how it turns out. My fingers are numb but there is so much to say.

Umm

Regards

Rohit :)

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A Reminder...........

Your Only
obligation in any lifetime
is to be true to yourself.
Being true to anyone else or
anything else is not only
impossible, but the
mark of a fake
messiah.
-------- Richard Bach

The butt of a Bleeding angel.............

Every Choice, every step every smallest opportunity when u exercise your free will, matters. And it would seem to me that the universe is so good to balance everything out that it kind of remembers where you are at and where have you arrived.

And I have arrived.

From hurt and pain, and remorse and guilt and severed ties, i Have Arrived.

But i am angel who has arrived .....with a bloody ASS.

How? lemme explain.

It would seem that by some electoplasmic siesmic technology my ass is bonded to this universe. The moment you try and take a pick and you CHOOSE, WHAAAAAMMMMMM !!! the whole universe comes down at ya. Ok ! Wise Guy!!!! now you want this huh??? ok.....here is the price. Pay it or leave.

SO i Pay. I pay in kind and i Pay with stuff that was at some level precious to me.So you keep on paying till you have all that you desire? But in all through the process you end up with a bloddy ass.....either it has something to do with getting what you wanted and there is this intengible effect of all that you do.

But i get so paranoid when i begin to write. Its like something snaps in my head and says what they hell man!!!! what is the point of putting down all this bullshit. No one is going to read it anyways.


But then i know i have to do it. Coz there is something inside my head which will chew my insides out, if i do not get this out.

so here is the deal.

If you believe that since i have chosen what i think is the best for me, if i have asked for MY best at this moment and if u feel you got trampled in the process, then you were standing in the wrong way.

This life is MINE. The choices i make are mine. Where i end up is, for me to decide. And in no way or in no time did i sign a deed where i gave anyone the responibility or the right to Choose or Decide for me. That choice is for me to make.

And if when and where i make that choice and u see me walking away, dun pray that i get a bloody ass. This is my first nature, ADVERSITY. This is what i thrive on.

And this IS MY LIFE.

Power on........

India in its true form and grandeur has finally arrived. The first day I felt this emotion was not through reading a politicised jingle proclaiming “India Shining” or not through some historical mention of India’s greatness, but at the launch of the much awaited “One Lakh “car. I am one of the few fortunate Indians who were present at the event, where as many would like to say, the “wheel was reinvented”. There in that jam packed pavilion, there was no visible sign of Indian flag, or a picture of Mahatma Gandhi portrayed anywhere but “India” was written all over the place.

With the launch of “Nano”, TATA Motors finally made the world to realize the great euphoria of the celebration called “India”. This India has arrived with the cutting edge technology presenting the world, with, not an apology of a car, but with leading edge improvements in cost savings, logistics and a planning inspired not by the entrepreneurial greed to break open a new market segment, but by a desire to solve a common man’s problems. Standing there in that pavilion, you could make out the glow on the people’s faces. The shine of the Audi’s, BMW’s and Volvos’ were way outshined by the average Indian going through “His Country’s own” brand. A brand which has so ubiquitous that it had largely become un noticeable in India. But suddenly TATA Motors catapulted itself to leading edge automobile major from an average Indian company. A man walked up to me that day and told me the words which will outshine the glitter of all the pay checks put together, he said “Thanks! You people have made us proud to be an Indian again”

And with the country largely populated with people in the age group of 20- 30 India has taken an all new shape. I was standing in an office building one day waiting with almost 15-20 “average” Indians waiting for the elevator to arrive. And there in this LCD screen I saw the Reliance Power’s new ad campaign “Power on” and I thought that India is actually powering on now. India is actually roaring to go and surge ahead on the backs of the youth who is now beginning to feel a part of this country again. And I smiled just a bit feeling proud to be a part of the movement which was putting India in a place it truly deserves. And when I took of my eyes from the screen I could sense the same spirit reflected in the faces of men standing with me under those little smiles. Everyone feeling responsible for powering, India on.

It’s actually wonderful to see the kind of commitment and excitement going on all around the country. We are no longer working for the MNC’s rather we are going out and taking those companies over. Transforming dead firms into profit producing units by nothing but that undying diligence so common in the average Indian. The Indian who is comfortable sitting with the britishers in air conditioned board rooms, wearing Gucci business suits and who travels almost with the same comfort and ease in a DTC bus packed with people on his way back home. An Indian who proudly walks into interview rooms filled with corporate executives feeling proud to be what he is.

India has finally arrived.

It’s like a movement an invisible force pushing people on. Like a sudden fountainhead of creativity and youth has sprang up enriching each and every part of the country. Chak de, Rang de basanti, Lead India, Indian MNC’s, Power on.......all being one manifestations of a single united message, “World watch out, India is coming”.

Here i am ..........On the Road AgAiN

Morning starts with a whiff of soft wind blowing on me cheeks. and i am conccious of nothing but the fact that there is a little pain in my neck. and i crane it a bit and yank it some....side to side and up and then again on one side. CRACK!!!!!! wow that sure sounds and feels good

and all i can feel in that moment is happiness , immense happiness at the start of a new day

but who knows what all this day has to bring to me. how many times will i be told to put a comma in my sentence, or to start it with a CAPITAL

AND NOT TO PUT unNECESSARY spaces between the paragraphs

or maybe told to wait outside for over an hour at a client site only to be told to come back later in the week on a saturday.

or maybe when i am riding a metro some pimply fat assed lady will come along and claim that i have no right to be seated

but then it does not give me a reason not to smile at the end of the day right?

and to smile at the thought of the possibilities that life has to offer and life which is so grand that it brings all new challenges and all new surprises everyday

well its so strange u know.. its like u standing under a tree and u poop ( thats my expression for anything that flows.....dun ask for an explanation.....u will not like it )

anyways u poop down there, under the tree and then u come back to that spot , that same very spot where you were earlier and it will not be the same, in any way

i mean life is like that, u keep running around and then nothing will be the same. but if ur sitting god damn still some one will sneak under ur nose and paint FUCK OFF just when ur having a good time ( thanks Mr. Salinger for that line(

anyways so what i mean here is that i had taken a few pics

which i have posted ahere at the pretence of writing a blog and connecting those pictures in intricate sensse to what i have written here

but i am tired now

you just SEE THE PICTURES HERE

AND YOU DAMN WELL LEAVE SOME GOOD COMMENTS OR YOU WILL ALSO SHUT DOWN WITH YOU PC

and then u will have to hold your tounge out and put one finger on ur butt and press enter to get started again

anyways i know that was a bad ass joke, me sense of humor took a beating ever since i read Joseph Heller

will get better

as such i am not looking for a pulitzer in blogging

see ya

have a nice life

Janis Joplin "Mercedes Benz"

Oh lord, wont you buy me a mercedes benz ?
My friends all drive porsches, I must make amends.
Worked hard all my lifetime, no help from my friends,
So lord, wont you buy me a mercedes benz ?


Oh lord, wont you buy me a color tv ?
Dialing for dollars is trying to find me.
I wait for delivery each day until three,
So oh lord, wont you buy me a color tv ?

Oh lord, wont you buy me a night on the town ?
Im counting on you, lord, please dont let me down.
Prove that you love me and buy the next round,Oh lord, wont you buy me a night on the town ?


Everybody!
Oh lord, wont you buy me a mercedes benz ?
My friends all drive porsches, I must make amends,
Worked hard all my lifetime, no help from my friends,
So oh lord, wont you buy me a mercedes benz ?

Random thoughts from an empty mind

The biggest irony of life …….well the biggest farce played out on all humans is the belief that life has a greater meaning and a greater cause. When we are young and all, we are told that you have to search for that “Greater Cause”. Textbooks and textbooks and millions of pages are written and taught and chewed and spit till they almost become a cliché. The words telling us about life’s of great men and woman who supposedly “ Found “ that greater calling of there lives.

Plato , Einstein, Madame Curie, Napoleon, Iacocca and a million others who lived for a greater good and a greater cause.

We keep on believing and we keep on looking for that greater cause all throughout our lives. Believing that one day we will find that elixir of life, the alchemist’s gold and things will suddenly change for us. Even I am the one who kept believing that and kept searching for it. Until recently I was watching this movie, “wonder Boys”, where the guys says once, “Life is something that happens to us when we are looking for something else”


Well I could habve dismissed the thoughts that followed like any other thought provoking ideas are auto filtered in my system but then again on a closer introspection I found that these 23 odd years, in which I have been trying to stay alive, more then 15 were spent creating tools which one day will help me make a career in the future, then next 5 were spent specializing the tools which one day will help me to get in the “future” and possible land a good, decent and high paying job. And then the next 2-3 years I was tryng to make a career which will one day help me settle down in the “ future” and now recently the latest thing on ma mind is, retirement planning and my “future” kids education plans. Well and if I count in all the holidays, being sick, attending family functions and all, then I guess the total will come to around 365 odd days. So one out of 23 years, I actually was living. Doing the things I want to do. Watching the green leaves, doing nothing and basically feeling alive. Extrapolate that a bit and if I manage to stay alive till another say 40 years I will die a very sad man coz I would have lived for only around 3-4 odd years. So 56 years of toil so that I can live for just 4 years.

All this time I keep on living in the future when I am loosing out the life that is tickling away right here right now. The life I can spend being happy about today, about here and about now. If only I can detach my mind from 2010, I may notice all the reasons I have to be happy right now. Alll the tiny little details that are around me which can make me happy right here in this moment. I guess its like a veil over my eyes and in moments like this when this veil is suddenly lifted I find as if everything is “ok”.

All of a sudden things become so beautiful. And almost in the same instant all this weight that I feel in my head is lifted. And I feel so alive again. But then in a moment the cell phone rings and there is some one giving me a 1 lakh rupee loan, or maybe one of ma friends wants to share his career planning with me, or maybe it’s the mobile phone company reminding me of my overdue bills. And then the moment is lost and trust me no matter how hard I try it does not come back too often..


Well I got inspired by my own writing and I decided to come and sit outside in the balcony, outside the 4 walls I spend my life in. The walls remain almost the same. The location keeps on changing. One point of time I am confined in the four walls of my house and in the next moment I move to rthe four walls of my office. And if maybe I need a change I go to see the walls of a restraunt. But like I said the walls remain more or less the same. . Well that’s my life for now.

Anyways coming back to the point. I guess education should be modified a bit and there should be a different subject called “life” which should teach you how to live. How to make mistakes and learn from them. How to be a fool and still get by. How not be great and still be happy. It should teach about all the people like Einstein and all and still tell you in bold and underlined text, that Einstein as a kid loved doing what he did as an adult. That Einstein compromised a lot to do what he loved to do. He was not emulating anyone. But he was being an average clerk in a govtt. Office and finding time to live in the moment and do what he loved to do.

How madame curie got cancer doing what she was doing and loving. Had these people been living for the future glory I doubt very much that they would actually have got it. And imagine a “Newton” sitting under the tree and thinking about his next job change, I doubt he would have given a damn if the apple was falling or maybe if the whole damn tree would have fallen. Poor gravity would have got compromised because of someone’s career planning.


Well I am beginning to think that if all these things I am trying to tell you are actually true then what the hell am I doing on this stupid lap top?

He he he he

That’s what life is I suppose. Happy journey anyways!!!!!!!!!!!