She came to me today......

I was standing there
in the dark
and she came to me today......
I know that look honey
I know u have been waiting
but isn't everysecond we spent waiting worth it now?
isn't every broken promise worth it?
isn't this life worth living now?

she stands there and smiles
knowing that emptiness inside me
the hours spent crying lonely in the dark
she knows I have been waiting
expecting
dreaming
hoping
that she will find me
and she did

this is how the journey begins
this is how we set to claim what is ours
Happiness

dREAMS I USED TO SEE ALL THE TIME........

You Are 100% Psychic

You are so very psychic. But you already predicted that, didn't you? You have "the gift" - and you use it daily to connect with others. You're very tapped into the world around you... Just make sure to use your powers for good!

Are You Psychic?

now this is something i would like to explain a bit more. there are times when i look at some one and i can tell that they are going to dig in there noses, and they do!!! they really do. or maybe some one walks over me in a crowd and i can tell that they are going to say "oh have we met before"/
and even before passing my 4th grade i was wondering that which planes have i been dropped from, my folks did not want to tell me that i am a result of what they did sometime, but anyways, what bthey did say was "u were dropped from the sky" so i have been searchin for that crazy planet all my life, not found it yet. but i know its right there somewhere

How impulsive am i......

You Are 72% Impulsive

You are impulsive, which at times leads to irresponsibility. It's hard for you to say no to all but the most insane propositions. But you could care less. While your impulsive ways have gotten you in a little trouble - they've made for a very exciting life!

Are You Impulsive?

hey this is crazy IT WORKS ALL THE TIME YA KNOW.................

What kind of writer i should be?

You Should Be a Science Fiction Writer

Your ideas are very strange, and people often wonder what planet you're from. And while you may have some problems being "normal," you'll have no problems writing sci-fi. Whether it's epic films, important novels, or vivid comics... Your own little universe could leave an important mark on the world!

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

i took this crazy test on my wookie's blog and looki how close this is to my writing....how many people out there agree?

Saturday Morning.......

I am sure most of the people here have listened to this song over and over again.....but the reason i am putting this here is that as soon as i woke up on this saturday, i was happy and i was smiling, in part bcoz i do not have to go to the office and in part bcoz i was just happy........ i am sure all of us have those moments when everything is OK and everything FITS


Artist: Pearl Jam Lyrics
Song: Black Lyrics

Hey...oooh...
Sheets of empty canvas
Untouched sheets of clay
Were laid spread out before me
As her body once did
All five horizons
Revolved around her soul
As the earth to the sun
Now the air I tasted and breathed
Has taken a turn
Ooh and all I taught her was everything
Ooh I know she gave me all that she wore
And now my bitter hands
Chafe beneath the clouds
Of what was everything
Oh the pictures have
All been washed in black
Tattooed everything
I take a walk outside
I'm surrounded by
Some kids at play
I can feel their laughter
So why do I sear
Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin
Round my head
I'm spinning
Oh, I'm spinning
How quick the sun can, drop away...
And now my bitter hands
Cradle broken glass
Of what was everything
All the pictures had
All been washed in black
Tattooed everything
All the love gone bad
Turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see
All that I am
All I'll be...
Yeah
Uh huh...uh huh...ooh...
I know someday you'll have a beautiful life
I know you'll be a sun
In somebody else's sky
But why
Why
Why can't it be
Why can't it be mine
(not sure?)
mm-hmm no yeah no
mm mmmm no nonono yeah yeah
we-
we belong
we belong together
together
oooh ooh
we-
we belong
we belong together
oh yeah

Schizophrenia

It seems to me that we humans have been living a life of a schizophrenic. We have been living not just in two split personalities but maybe many more than that. We get up everyday and that is the time that we are closest to our true being. We feel the warmth within ourselves and we feel that soft gentle happiness inside of us. But as the day progresses our true self gets buried under layers n layers of expectations.

We are expected to behave in a certain defined manner. There is a code on the way you speak, there is another code that tells you that there are things in life you cannot have. Even if you know that doing something will give you immense pleasure, you are torn between what is right and what is wrong.

Take for example the most basic human need. “Sex”. I believe that it is the sweetest, most remarkable emotion that we humans can experience, that one moment, that one single second in which we feel infinite happiness and bliss. In that moment there is no inhibition no holding you back. But how many people even think of it in those terms. A million inhibitions are tied onto this particular emotion, you cannot talk about it, you cannot discuss it, as if it’s a remorseful mortification of human caricature.

I have seen married couples who were infinitely in love with each other a few months back, being torn between lives, expectation, and such shit. Slowly all of them move into a kind of inertial life where they are just spending time with each other. There is no erotic feeling when your spouse touches you; there is no feeling of content. I do not think I am given the tools to understand why people complicate there lives so much……..

Maybe someday I really will…….

the devil is back

well, first thing first. i am writing my blog after such a long haul coz i had lost my password( i hope this is a good excuse!!! he he he he ). Anyways, life has been kinda strange to me lately. i have had the pleasure to meet really goofy and eccentric sort of people.
i have been wanting to write something here since a long time, but everytime i wrote something on my home PC, i felt disgusted like always and had to delete it all to get rid of the idea. Well writing drives me nutts. But at times an idea really comes up and grabs you and you have to do something about it......DAMN FAST.


anyways. So actually i went to the railways station today to drop a friend of mine. He is going to a place called Tohana, to do a job.so he is the kinda a guy who is always partying and all, and always having fun.
so while his train was leaving a sudden thought came to my mind. Now this place where he has to go is the most depressing place on the planet ( Abhigyan don't kill me for this, but i guess u will agree). so suddenly while his train was snaking away from the station a thought came to my head, that how destiny shapes our lives!!! he would never hane imagined a life in such a place. so this suddent attack of introspection grabbed me and while driving back i was forced to thing how my own life has changed......
things and events have a certain kind of background, where everything is sort of "Decided". so if everything is decided then what is the fucckin need to work your ass off? why not wait on a highway for a truck to come down and shred you to a million pieces. if there is a thing called god up there and he is pulling the strings then why not let the sorry ass do his job?

so like i mean if every damn thing ais bound to happen, and u can change just the tits and bits of it athen why struggle like an ass to change things, why not go with the flow.
well i had to write this down so that i can drive piecefully, so i stopped at a cafe by the road to throw this here. i guess i will think and write more on this topic and then maybe someday i will have my own novel on this topic. he he he he

lets see if i can wrrite a book on this " The Ass god and his Strings", something like that. Lets see. Will let ya all know. and hey "moment" if ur reading this, then thank you. i really love your comments........see ya